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i've been meaning to write this, just to talk it out.
im sorry im not being acitve, besides my tablet being broken i've been dealing with some stuff and with the help of a very special person im getting better
im sorry im not posting, but the time i was on DA, i always felt like i was behind a mask, acting the way i dont act so people would like me because i was too scared to act as myself
following patterns, thinking about my style of drawing and asking myself if that is what i want to do
i awlays felt like i had to do really complete drawings, and not just simple stuff that i like to do
i was really scared of make my own desicions so i always asked a lot of people of how THEY would feel about it and not me, something that was destroying me and i didnt realize
i was hiding my pain, my sadness, my anxiety, thinking that i deserved to suffer, that i wasnt good enough, that im not a good person
its kinda hard to explain, but this year a lot of stuff changed for me and only now i am accepting that i can make my own decisions and losing this fear
this may sound dumb and you may think its dumb, but i didnt felt like it was dumb
i felt like i had to make everyone happy, but i wasnt looking at myself
im changing to someone better, not the person i was in 2017 and in 2016
i want to start on a new path, a path that i dont have to hide my feelings, that i can make this pain go away, a path that i can really be happy
i could never have done this without the help of the very special person shown in my drawings, that is, my boyfriend, and im very happy i found him

for all of you that are having the same experience, please dont give up
asking for help doesnt mean you are weak.
you are a strong, confident person, you can do everything if you work hard for it.
dont forget to take care of yourself.
you
matter.
and please, if you need any help with this kind of stuff
you can message me and i will be very happy to help
i really hope you get better, i believe in you !! 
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some stuff

1 min read
hey everyone !! its been a while since i posted something, thats because im having an artblock and a lot of school work to do
im not being able to draw in my spare time that is very little and im getting really tired of school
i hope you all understand, i'll try to do my remaining commissions this week after i finish up my school works

thanks for your understanding BT21 - RJ emoticon alpaca - bt21 rj 
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yesterday my very close friend passed away, i went to her funeral today and i must admit it was a very bad experience.
she was 13 years old, and it was a shock to me to know that she passed away so early.
please, if you have a friend, boyfriend/girlfriend or anyone important in your life, please tell them how much you love and care about them, you never know when they can go. you know that friend or cousin you like a lot that you dont see or talk in a long time? dont forget to tell them you care about them. 
didnt know you would go away so early, but you completed your mission. 
i know you are happy and fine somewhere better, somewhere you dont need medicines to survive. 
you were a good friend, my best friend. im gonna miss you a lot. 

Leticia by squidshy
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hmm opening headshot commissions !!

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* by Kittyrocker i accept paypal and points
* by Kittyrocker soft and pastel colors are a really good choice !!
* by Kittyrocker please choose the expression ;v;
* by Kittyrocker i may take a while to make it all done, so please be patient 
* by Kittyrocker i'll make a widget for you to send the payment 
* by Kittyrocker order in the comments, its nice to have the details so i can make it just the way you want c:
* by Kittyrocker if you read all the rules, say "saturn" in your order please 

example: 
star guy by squidshy
each one is 300 points, or 3,75$
1. sharkissus 
2. Kitten-Doodles
3. AmethystShootingStar
4. Createrax
5. plushbytes
6.
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